i so obviously i gave up on the post a day idea..... but i will take a minute to update, even though i have been crazy busy. which is way more exhausting than just being crazy! so i finally got dr nichols to call in a persciption for lamictal for me. he called in 100 mg. twice a day.... good thing i have spent the last 3 months reducing since my dr. was ready to just cut me by a third over night! jackass! so now i am down to 75mg twice a day with no side effects. my sleep patterns are much more normal, my panic is down by 75% and the rash on my back, neck and shoulders is gone..... now i will go down to 50mg in the am and 75mg @ night, we will see how things go.....
still daily nonsense with the boy, lawyers, court, cps, the dad, blah blah blah more later......s

amazingly the boy's father has shown up out of nowhere and decided to step up to the plate and take a turn..... we are moving quickly to get all the legal bullshit gone so that he can be cleared to go to mexico with the dud i mean dad.....
to catch up with what has been happening with my meds...... i am now down to 75mg lamictal twice a day.... it has not been easy, but at this point i feel much better. my rash is gone but has left scars which i hope are temporary. i am still very random in my thought process and forgetful but my panic has reduced by 100%! i am sleeping better and i can feel my body trying to detox
i just now took a really hot bath, hoping to leach out some of the toxicity from years of meds...... the sweat from the steam burned my skin and when i got out i was overcome with insane itching..... feeling better now tho....
my glands in my neck are swollen and sore! i keep drinking water to try to flush out what ever they are choked up with........
thinks are progressing in every good way!