i called my bank's 800 number today and informed the guy who answered their phone that if they don't stop taking fees out of my account that i can't afford i am coming to their local branch and killing myself in their lobby.... oddly enough he refunded all the fees and fixed my account so that it won't happen again..... i am finding that living a life of honesty is really starting to pay off! (;

ok finally some thing good to report..... my month long headache is gone.....! (: yay for survival and thanks for the prayers! something weird though,,,, i am completely panic stricken today.... no reason, everything normal, just panic...... i am just making a note to compare with my meds changing....... it's so fun to be me! i went to the college and took a compass placement test for english and scored a 96 on reading and 91 on writing...... i was wondering if it might have scored higher if i hadn't taken the test during my marathon headache.... i actually wore sunglasses during the test, how crazy am i?

i am on headache day..... 14 or 15 i am starting to lose count..... i went to the walk in clinic yesterday and my dr. told me to stop taking everything...... just stop right now... WTF? i knew it all along, but is official my dr. is stupider than me! suddenly stopping anti seizure meds could put me into a seizure which could kill me.......
i am going back down to barrow's...... "oh my hell!" is going to be the name of my book!

i wanted to get down a few thoughts before they are gone from my mind forever....... i had to sit down yesterday and answer a thousand questions about how often i have seizures, what meds i take how often i take them, what they do to me and on and on and on until my predominate thought was death and i couldn't stop it!
i cried and sobbed and felt sorry for myself, i felt angry and alone and finally rage! i attached myself to the rage and hung on to it all day..... finally when i was done and got everything in the mail, i stopped at the pharmacy for a refill and a really hot muscle bound tattooed guy hit on me for 20 minutes till my prescription was ready and then watched me go to my car. 1o yrs ago i would have been tempted, but i have sworn off testosterone saturated men! i am waiting for my dentist! i am done with adrenaline junkies and i am addicted to getting my teeth cleaned! FOCUS FOCUS! i am determined to stay focused, but still it was flattering and made my day better...... ! (:

ok i am on headache day 6..... my whole life is beginning to feel like a blur and the only thing i can remember is having a headache! i loved my birthday though, headache and all. i spent it with my lovely toni, she took me out to eat mexican food for my birthday, then i made her salmon, broccoli and baked potatoes for her birthday! (toni's birthday was the 31st)
i have paperwork to turn into the school tomorrow, and star goes back to school on wednesday.... where did summer go? it never even got hot up here........