ok crazy! now that i am working down toward a third of the lamictal i was taking 4 months ago, i am starting to have symptoms which i know are not the "real me" it's like i am going thru withdrawl. not that i have ever been an addict, but i seem to going thru what you hear about.
yesterday i did nothing but pace in circles! i have lots of muscle and joint pain where i shouldn't have any, i have been caught on my hamster wheel for days and all i can think about is how to kill myself
so i decided the thing to do is some cleansing to help release the built up toxicity! what a weird word! like some horrible urban village of filth......anyway, ok focus.... i started last week taking 3 or 4 tsp of honey/vinegar a couple of times a day, which has gotten rid of the joint pain. i did some yoga last night which helped and this morning after i took star to school i stopped at the track and did a couple of laps....
the plan for today is drink water! i am shooting for a gallon..... that should be fairly gentle cleansing..... more yoga this afternoon before i get star off the bus, spring cleaning between now and then.
mellie had a good idea for the thought control issue, i got myself a very pretty day planner, the idea being plan out every minute, shower, check..... get star from school, check......make dinner check...."then you will have a sense of accomplishment every min. and when you start thinking you want out of here, you can remember you have things you need to do" i love my daughter so much! it sounds like a good plan i'm on it!